Wednesday 15 September 2010

Nightmare

Everyone has nightmares. Some are forgotten, some are lifelong. I also have them quite often. Most of them I forget the very next day. But there is one I couldn't forget till now though it happened a long time ago when I was a kid. The very thought of those small yet horrible incidents haunt me even today.

"Hey, come on, lets play inside", he invited me to his home like any other day. I couldn't read his intentions at that time.

"Will you get me chocolates?", I innocently asked and declared,"Only then I'll come to play with you". I thought it was a genuine demand of a 7 years kid.

"Yes I do have. Come on, get in", he played his trick.

We used to play for hours together. At some times he was very caring while at times he behaved rude. I couldn't understand his volatile moods.

"Come here, sit on my lap", he would ask me and I'd do as directed.

I thought he loved me. At that time I couldn't distinguish between loving and love making. I thought I was playing with him. But it was him who was playing with me, my body. Though sometimes it felt something was going wrong but I couldn't offend. I could only wait till he was finished. I couldn't understand anything and used to keep a demure smile. I was more interested in the chocolates.

***

"Well, that's a case of pedophilia", my Psychiatrist told me when I finished describing my nightmare to her.

"Pedophilia?", I asked to clarify the term which was alien to me.

"Its the activity of having sexually involved with the children", she clarified.

I was shocked to know the fact that someone sexually harassed me in my childhood. "But how to overcome this nightmare now?", I asked angrily.

"Cool down, there is nothing to worry about now. It was just a phase of time that has passed a long time ago. All you need to do is that never think about those incidents. The more you'll think about it the more it will haunt you", she showed a genuine care and attention.

I walked back to the home and wished I never loved chocolates. I somehow get to know to overcome my nightmare.



P.S. - It is just a piece of fiction but a bitter reality in our society in which innocent children are sexually harassed by their neighbors, relatives or even their own family members. The child doesn't understand at first but never forgets when he does after some time. The nightmare follows to haunt him for the rest of his life.



21 After Thoughts:

Tweety said...

oh i agree completely with you...its a hurt like none other...and a wound that just does not heal...

Nostalgic said...

Agreed. A wound that would follow like the most horrible nightmare ..

Dreamer said...

As you so rightly put it, it is indeed a hurt like no other, a real nightmare indeed.

Angel said...

A story about something a person will never truly get over.

ThomG said...

Wounds like this never heal and that is the tragedy of this.

Thomma Lyn said...

So well-presented about a hurt that would haunt more than any nightmare.

adreamygal said...

Hmmmmmm..well Deepak , I dunno what to say , for I have faced kinda situation myself , but thank God I ran away from that place ...The nightmare just brot back those memories , which though time makes us wise , it doesn't leave the impressions once made ..

Huh bdw , as u know I am no that good at gramatics , but still there was one place which I felt should be alteration : But it was him who was playing with me , it sounds better if its : But it wa she who played with me ... Well I really don't want you to change it , because as time goes and you become best at writing , and when you look at this , you will really smile , and I don't want my words to take your smile , not even one time :)( I know this definitely made you smile ! :))

Deepak said...

@ tweety: absolutely.

@ nostalgic: hmmm...

@ dreamer: yeah...

@ angel: I agree

@ ThomG: but life goes even then

@ thomma: thank u

@ adreamygal: I'm happy that u ran away from that situation timely.
and I'm glad that u always try to rectify wherever I'm gone. but this time I didn't make any grammatical mistake. I deliberately chose the word 'him' because its not only female who can have such relations with a boy child, it may be a male too. thanks again

Scribbling Girl said...

Well such incidents happen so much in india...been in some almost such incidents....thankfully i escaped...but such incidents need to be stopped for which lots need to be done.....and especially lot for the sexually deprived lot who don't realize what it does to the child.

P.S. Nice blog u have :)

Deepak said...

@ scribbling girl: well, it needs to be done at the personal level I guess. Those who do such things should themselves understand that it can also happen to their children in future. Thanks for dropping by and liking my blog :)

Sidra Sayeed said...

Children get molested all the time and their weakness is their inability to comprehend that they are being molested. It's a strange co-incidence that it finds a mention in my latest post 'Dabbang', give it a peek if you get a chance you'll know what I'm talking about.

Reinforcing a sense of trust is very important, especially among parents and children.

Sakhi Shah said...

Very nicely written and on a very crucial topic. :)

Anonymous said...

ha, I will test my thought, your post give me some good ideas, it's truly awesome, thanks.

- Norman

Bikramjit Singh Mann said...

Right you scared me there in the starts .. thank god its just a fiction but a TRUE one which is SAD it happens so much around us or even to some of us

Thats why parents shud talk to there kids, Be friends so much that they coem and tell you everything and we can pick it from there

Sad reality

nice one ..


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Leo said...

Deepak, where are u? It's ur theme for Haiku Heights this week! "Sacred"!

Deepak said...

@ sidra: and sometimes they don't get to know that they are being molested.

@ sakhi: thanks a lot.

@ bikram: Yes, the communication between parents and children needs to be improved so that we can control it right from the beginning. thanks for dropping by.

@ leo: thanks leo for the honor. I've commented there on Haiku Heights for my inability to participate. Thanks again.

shootingstar said...

Was here, nice blog uve got ! :)

Deepak said...

@ shootingstar: thanks, welcome here :)

Anonymous said...

Hello

Awesome blog, great write up, thank you!

Deepak said...

@ anonymous: thanks for dropping in

Anonymous said...

Hey - I am really glad to discover this. cool job!

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