Wednesday 26 May 2010

Anything For You

It was last day of my college. During all the three years that I spent there, I wanted to tell her something. Something that would make her feel special and how and what I think about her. It didn't start suddenly, like most good things, it happened gradually. I started liking her smile and how she used to talk and how she used to take care of everyone. I was very attracted to her personality.

Every year on her birthday, which was on 5th September, I used to get ready early in the morning and visit the same temple she did. Following each and every move of hers yet couldn't gather the courage to open my heart out. Each time an idea came to mind, I tried to abandon it, for I didn't want my image to be ruined before her.

But today was the day I had to do it. It wasn't sure we would ever meet in this life again since I was going to leave this place forever. I knew that I couldn't speak out before her. So, to make the job simpler I tried my writing skills and wrote a letter to her. Our farewell was going on when she left the assembly to make a call. I followed her. I was keeping my fingers crossed so that everything goes according to my precise plan. When she got free from the call, I sat on my knees and presented her the flowers and the letter. She took it smilingly.

Then she read it in my presence,"Ma'am, I've been watching you since three years in this institution. You didn't change a bit. I like the way you teach us and your caring attitude towards students. Ma'am, I don't know why it took so long for me to say you all this. Every year on your birthday, which coincidently comes on Teachers' Day, all students used to come to you and wish you good wishes and appreciate the way you are. But it was me alone who couldn't ever come to you. I don't know what stopped me every then. All I want to say Ma'am, is that, I'll miss you during the rest of my life. Miss you and ...."

"Miss you and ....", she asked,"and what?"

".... and anything for you Ma'am", I said and ran to the assembly and took my seat.

I was constantly thinking how I gathered all my abandoned courage to precisely speak my heart out. Then my heart answered that nothing happens suddenly, like all good things, it was collected gradually. But I still wonder, was it really I wanted to tell her or was it something else? Something which hasn't come out of my heart till now.





20 After Thoughts:

ThomG said...

It's always good to say what's in your heart.

Leo said...

Very nicely written Deepak.. :)

Pri said...

well written! :)

pia said...

It's scary to say what's in our heart

Thomma Lyn said...

Gentle, sweet, and touching. :)

Tammy Brierly said...

How brave and sweet. :)

Andy Sewina said...

Phew, this is a case of who dares wins! It could also be a learning curve for the writer.

I like the way you touch the emotions of the reader. I for one wanted him to profess his love for her.

Nicely told!!

Denise Moncrief said...

I understand his reluctance. Sometimes feelings most deeply felt are the hardest to admit aloud.

Zave said...

Silents does speak, but sometimes its worth putting the heart out.
Very true my friend.

Jay Thurston said...

I could feel his tension, his nervousness, how he felt it all came down to the now or never. Nice work Deepak!

b said...

Love for a teacher...it brought tears to my eyes. Well done.

b

Deepak said...

thanks a lot everyone. I'm honored.

Timothy P. Remp said...

Well written and very touching.

-Tim

Deepak said...

@ tim: thanx a lot

gautami tripathy said...

Nice, Deepak!

undefined paths

Deepak said...

@ gautami: thanx gautamy.

adreamygal said...

Deepak , this was something , i misunderstood at someone else :P thats how you wrote it , and i loved this style :) guess 1 st tym u have written so :P nice one yaar :)

Deepak said...

@ adreamygal: thanx dear. glad u liked it.

Dee Martin said...

I bet she remembers it to this day :)

Deepak said...

@ martin: hehe. yeah, she may, but in my imagination only :-)

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